The Ledger
By the time I reach her room the cough has settled and she is sitting up against the bolster, furious about it, which is how I know it was bad.
“You let a Candlewright stand in my house for two hours,” Maeve Mourvale says. Eighty-one years old, four stone soaking wet, dying the slow way, and her voice can still strip varnish.
“I let him stand. I didn’t let him touch anything.”
“Which hand did you stitch with?”
“Gran.”
“Which hand, Wren.”
“Both,” I say, and she closes her eyes, and for a moment the fury goes out of her and what’s left underneath frightens me more than any walking corpse ever has. My grandmother is afraid. She has been afraid for a month, ever since the sickness turned the corner from slowing her down to taking her apart, and she will not say of what, and Maeve Mourvale is not afraid of anything that can be salted, stitched, or sued.
Below us the house groans in the fog. It is built for the dead and fits them better than us: viewing parlors we can’t heat, a cellar of good cold stone, doors wide as coffins are long. What it doesn’t have is custom. The new crematorium in Bellhollow is cheap and quick and the Candlewrights bless it by the batch, and never mind that ash without rite has to be sealed in lead. Nobody believes the old troubles will come back. Fewer every year, anyway.
Our books say otherwise. Our books say the Mourvale Mortuary has nine weeks of solvency left, and that was before Gran’s medicines.
“The Petch account will cover the coal,” I say, because numbers are how she and I say soothing things to each other. “And the Wystan family owes us for two buryings. I’ll collect Thursday.”
“You’ll stay out of Bellhollow Thursday.” Her eyes are still closed. “Bring me the ledger.”
“The Wystans are good for it—”
“Not the accounts, girl. The ledger.”
There is only one book in this house she calls that, in that tone: the long grey volume that lives behind the panel in the office wall, the one I was allowed to see opened exactly twice in my childhood — once when my mother’s name was written in it, once when it was crossed out. Family record, she’s always said. Births, deaths, debts.
It is heavier than a book of names should be. I carry it up and set it on the quilt, and her hands, which shook all winter, go still and sure on the grey leather like a musician’s on an old instrument.
“You’ll listen now,” she says, “and you’ll be smarter about it than I was. When the time comes, you go down the mountain. Whatever they tell you. Whatever they offer. There’s money sewn under the—” The cough takes her.
It takes her longer this time. I hold her shoulders through it, and I am so busy being the strong pair of hands, so busy counting her breaths like coins, that it is a moment before I see what her thumb has done: worked open the little brass hasp at the back of the ledger, the one I always took for ornament, and folded back a leaf of grey leather to show a final page that is not like the other pages.
The other pages are paper. This one gleams.
Names, in a column older than the house, older than the paper it isn’t written on. A schedule, like a rent-book — a name, and a year, and beside each entry the same small ideogram: a door, standing open. My grandmother’s name is there, with a year fifty years cold beside it. Above hers, her uncle’s. Above his, a woman whose portrait hangs on the stair with her face scratched out.
And below them all, at the bottom of the column, in ink that is not faded because it does not need to fade, in the ink of a thing that has been waiting rather than aging:
Wren Mourvale.
There is no year beside my name. There is a space for one.
“Gran.” My voice comes out in the flat professional register I use over open caskets, which is a thing I will be ashamed of later. “What is this.”
Her lips move. The debt, I think she says. Then, urgent, half-voiced, spending breath she doesn’t have: “Not a debt. Wren. Listen. It was never a debt, it’s a—”
The bells of the house begin to ring.
All of them at once — parlor bells, door bells, the deep bronze corpse-bell in the yard that hasn’t been rung in my lifetime — every bell in the Mourvale Mortuary tolling together in the fog like the house itself has a voice and has decided, after six generations, to scream. Down the mountain, faint, town bells answer. And under all of it, under the bronze and the brass and my grandmother’s stopped sentence, I feel it in the soles of my feet before I understand it:
Something, far below us, in the stone roots of the Vale, has knocked.
My grandmother’s hand closes on mine, hard, one last transaction, pressing my fingers flat against the shining page — against my own name — as if a dying woman could hide it from what’s coming by covering it with my hand.
“Maeve,” I say, “Gran, stay—”
But she has already gone where I can’t collect her, and the bells are still ringing, and two floors down, in the preparation room, a dead miser with silver on his eyes is laughing in the dark.